Slice the Cake

Back in college, my ultimate dream job was to be a cake slicer. You know, someone who slices cakes at a pastry or coffee shop. NO KIDDING. you could ask some of my friends about it. :-)

Ten years later, never in my wildest dreams that I would be slicing cakes (to think that I had zero skills in cooking and baking). And to add to that, I am making the cakes myself! :-) I never kept my hopes high in chasing my dreams.  After all, I was only in college taking up Information Technology (IT) and I was just only dreaming for that job.  How would an IT student like me be slicing cakes as a profession?  That would be silly.  Except, that is, slicing a cake on a birthday is fairly reasonable. :-)

Manasseh and Ephraim

Photo credit: walkwithjesusonline.com

Joseph named his older son Manasseh,[a] for he said, “God has made me forget all my troubles and everyone in my father’s family.” Joseph named his second son Ephraim, for he said, “God has made me fruitful in this land of my grief.”

- Genesis 41: 51-52

Will God also make me forget all my trouble -- personal and relational?

Will God make me fruitful in my suffering... in my struggle?

Father God, why am I even struggling again with the father issue? What is it within my heart still that makes it filthy and ugly?

"Unforgiveness," God whispered.

Then help me to forgive, God, and to know that You really are in control.

[Journal entry: January 8, 2013]

Leaving Behind

I am leaving yesterday behind.

I am leaving myself behind.

I am leaving immaturity behind.

I am leaving comfort behind.

I am leaving complacency behind.

I have one goal in mind: To glorify GOD in everything I do.

Two weeks from now, I will turn 29. I am thinking of what to do with my life as I get older another year.

My request to God is this:
Don't let me miss You. Don't let me miss the mighty things You will be doing soon. I don't want to be left out of the inner court.

Lord, fill me with Your Holy Spirit. And I need to encounter Jesus in a way that would really change my mindset and heartbeat. So Lord, I am dedicating my year to You... only to You. Amen.



[Journal entry: February 13, 2013]

Refresh!

Father God,

Refresh my soul. Refresh my soul oh God. I don't know what I'm feeling or what I'm going through now, but Father, You know exactly what I'm going through. My heart is not settled and I don't know why.  Father God, oh Father God -- refresh my spirit, my soul, my being! it seems that I couldn't receive anything from Your Word.  It's like something is hindering me from worshiping You.

If there is anything I need to confess to You, let Your Holy Spirit reveal it to me, Father. I need Your refreshment. I need Your revival.  I need to "relive." Father, I long for You, and I don't want to be "de-wired" from You.

Oh Father God, refresh  my spirit, my soul, and my being! In Jesus' name. Amen.

[Journal entry: May 13, 2011]